To practice, just sit quietly and follow the breath. Then begin to pour peace, love, and forgiveness, first to yourself. You bless yourself and all you may be inwardly blaming. Then you move on…” ~ Tosha Silver, Outrageous Openness
You begin with yourself.
I’ve heard it said that metta meditation (the practice being described in the quote) begins with easiest and moves up in difficulty; like a rising tension.
Send peace + love to yourself.
Send peace + love to those you love.
Send peace + love to those you have trouble liking.
I propose that this is completely inaccurate. That, in fact, you begin with the most difficult, you begin with yourself. In the work I do, mentoring and supporting Wonders like you, there is one thing I find myself advising so often it has become a mantra to me: Grace.
Be gracious with yourself. Be kind to yourself. Offer yourself the same compassion you would offer to me were our places exchanged. I say it over and over again because it, so often, truly is the hardest thing for us to do.
Take a deep breath.
Feel your belly expand.
Place your hand and attention on your heart.
Feel love + compassion build and overflow beneath your hand.
Offer that love + compassion first to yourself.
Forgive your faux pas, slip ups, and all out mistakes.
Keep your focus on you heart, on the love + compassion.
Allow Love to flow over, and around, and under you – like a warm bath.
Feel its source, feel it flowing out from under your hand.
Begin with yourself.
Allow yourself to sit, hand on heart for a few moments simply being in this place. Then answer this question for me:
Are you open to receive?
You yourself, as much as anyone in the entire Universe, deserve your own love and affection. ~ Buddha
March 27, 2015 10 Comments
Let what wants to come, come. Let what wants to go, go.
If it’s mine, it will stay. If not, whatever is better will replace it.
If you fully invoke God’s highest will for you you’ll never fear the movement of the stars again. ~ Tosha Silver, Outrageous Openness
I read this last night while lying awake in bed because my back was hurting so much falling asleep felt impossible. There is no denying that I am definitely feeling the “supernewmoon-solareclipse-geomagneticshitstorm-springequinox” (as my friend Teresa Deak so perfectly called it). I can feel it pushing against me and in response I’m buckling down as if waiting for a storm, and I’m pushing back.
But what if we’re looking at it wrong?
First, I should make super clear that I am not a Western Astrologer. I don’t “speak” Western Astrology very well. I need interpreters. I can only come at this from my experience with Elemental Astrology. I feel like you should know this before you read on. Now: Onward.
I have spent the last five years or so learning about the Elemental seasons (years and months) of Nine Star Ki by simply bringing awareness to what the eff is happening to me right now. And the number one thing I have learnt is that we can’t escape the energy of our year or month, but that doesn’t mean we just need to sit back and expect to be bashed around the head by the astrology. Quite the contrary.
What I’ve actually learnt is that how we experience the Elemental season has less to do with the astrology and almost everything to do with how you encounter it. I now know that if you push against where the Element you are currently in is taking you then what you’ll get is a rocky ride. But if, on the other hand you find a way to walk in step with it then you actually end up being buoyed up through the ride.
The “stars” (whether my Elemental ones, or the Western ones) are all telling us a story. They talk about the pace at which the Universe will support our movement right now. (The Supernewmoon-solareclipse-geomagneticshitstorm-springequinox’s pace is apparently S-L-O-W if Facebook is any indication.) They talk to us about the Doing that would best serve us right now. (I’m not sure what the Supernewmoon-solareclipse-geomagneticshitstorm-springequinox’s homework is – see above note on Western Astrology – but I enjoyed this blog post earlier.)
They aren’t what’s happening to us.
How often do I begin my day with a pause that invites input into my plans for the day? How often do I relinquish control? Or even ask, “What wisdom do I need today?”
I can’t deny that back is hurting to an incapacitating degree, or that neither Jeff nor I have slept properly for at least three nights. And yet. Our response has been to dig in. Push harder. I. Will. Get. Some. Fucking. Work. Down.
Damn it. Why can’t I just go lie on the couch and watch movies all day? Doesn’t the situation call for it? Why isn’t that ok?
I tell people this all the time, and yet I find I need to be reminded of it today: Each day is not the same as the next. Yesterday and tomorrow are not the same days with the same needs and the same way to respond. And yet, we tend to plan and move through them (or try to) as if they are. Why is that?
We do not need to beware the stars. The stars didn’t do this to me. I did. I pushed. I resisted the flow. I insisted on the One Way. And now I need to interpret the signs – of the stars and my body and my mood – and give myself permission to go where the flow is going and stop working. Because that is the wisdom of the stars, of my wiped out brain and aching shoulder today. Rest.
How are you encountering the signs – the stars, your body, your emotions – in your world this week?
What is the pace you are being called to? What homework might be being suggested to you? What wisdom is speaking to you through them?
March 20, 2015 6 Comments
Whether you want a new job, a new mate, or just a shift in your life… there is a Universal being just waiting to help you. — G. Alan Joel
A few years ago I have the great pleasure of attending a retreat that Joanna Powell Colbert was teaching at. In one of her sessions she talked about how so often we approach Nature (in a magical or metaphysical way – though it’s often true materially too) as if Nature exists for us, simply waiting to serve us, give us the answers we want – as if they have no other purpose.
After the talk we were sent out to commune with nature. We were told not to ask anything except permission to sit with that tree or flower or stream. And then we were simply to be, to listen, to get to know that piece of nature. Kind of like you would with any sentient being that you encounter at your local Starbucks or in your neighbourhood.
This talk and my time in the woods that afternoon was transformational for me. Since then I’ve embarked on a study of Magic and all my best teachers have emphasized the importance of relationship in any energetic working. If we understand that other beings – be they trees or angels or hawks – have their own paths and purposes unfolding before them, and we are only tiny (or possibly larger) blips on those paths we would have to concede that some form of relationship is essential to the success of whatever it is we are attempting to do, create, or magic.
But are they standing along the proverbial wall like well-trained butlers…
I know that G. Alan is right, there is a Universal being capable of helping you with any task. But are they standing along the proverbial wall like well-trained butlers simply waiting for your requests and then happy to have you flit away, possibly never to return? Or are they most interested in those willing to establish a true relationship with them? Willing to speak and to listen? Willing to not see them as servants, but someone worthy of deepening a connection with over and over again?
I know what I would want and expect if you were calling on me for support. What would you hope for if I was calling on you to help me?
What do you think about G Alan Joel’s claim? Have you thought about the role of relationship with the beings – be they tree or angel or hawk, etc. – that you look to for messages and support? Tell me about it.
March 17, 2015 2 Comments
I’ve been reading again (this time not about money but devotion and divinity), I bring you my reading thoughts and ponderings once more.
“I started my magickal (sic) career much the same way as most people do with an interest in the unusual, the paranormal and the occult, always with one question burning strongly in my mind, “Why”…”
The Temple of Hekate, by Tara Sanchez
An Aside: I think she could have simply said “as most people with an interest in the spiritual/sacred do…” and been as accurate with more impact, so I’m going with that terminology.
I set out into my career in the sacred and spiritual to find the answer to an entirely different question: Who?
I wanted to know everything I possibly could about who God (how I exclusively referred to the Divine at that time) was. No holds barred. No safe walls to protect my sensibilities. Just me and the Divine. I have to say, it’s been an eye opening, ever expanding, nothing’s out of bounds ride ever since.
What question has your journey into the spiritual and the sacred been answering?
March 3, 2015 12 Comments