Dilemmas and Excuses

I have a dilemma: I can’t figure out who You are, or who I want you to be. Not that I want You, in particular, to change; rather who the larger You I want to attract is.

Basically, I have no idea who I’m talking to!

I’d say that I’ve started ten or more blog posts in the last few weeks – in my head, though some of them made it to paper (at least their titles did). But everytime I go to finish one, to put it online, I hit a wall.

What’s with that?

I read a blog post a couple of week’s ago (of course, I wasn’t clever enough to book mark it) that was talking about the idea of creating an ideal Reader, the profile for a particular (yet imaginary) person who sums up your “target market”. The idea is that you then write as if speaking to that person particularly.

After reading that blogger’s thoughts on the idea (that she finally created one and thought it was hugely helpful) I realized that was my problem, I have no You – no Ideal Reader – I don’t know who you are. What with all the changes I’ve made to my focus here (officially including Tarot and my spiritual focus) I’ve been trying to figure out exactly what I should be talking about. Old topics? New Tarot, Divination, Spiritual topics? Goddess spirituality topics? The collection of random things on my mind at any given time (i.e. all of the above)? I don’t know what you want to hear from me or what you don’t want to hear. So, instead I’ve been stumbling along pretty much saying nothing.

This, of course, is relatively useless. I realize that working with the old, subconscious idea of who would read my blog (the creative, entrepreneurial woman with kids, etc…) is what’s really blocking me. The woman I was trying to write to eight months ago may or may not be interested in my thoughts on Anger, Divination, The Moon or how the Tarot works. But, aren’t I supposed to be writing both to inform (and I suppose entertain/help) you and to let potential clients know what I do? In which case, I need to be writing about those things.

Where am I going with this? I’m not really sure. I suppose I’m just offering you my excuses for my seeming complete randomness of posting.

The truth is, I started working on this “Ideal Reader” about a week or so ago, got interrupted, and never picked her back up. So, if I’m procrastinating the blog posts because I’m not sure who I’m talking to, why am I procrastinating on working out who I’m talking to?

Things to do today: Figure out who You are so that I can finally get off my butt and write all those crazy blog posts about Rest, the Sacred, Souls, etc… After all, there’s not much point starting to build the house before you have the foundation poured. And then hopefully I can finally find the courage to put down in black and white all the things I’ve been thinking about sharing with you for the last few weeks.

And just for accountability’s sake, I’d like to start getting 2-3 blog posts up here each week. Just as soon as I work out who would like to read them…

No comments are really required, I just felt bad about missing yesterday’s Dare and really needed to vent about my wall with someone. Consider this vent complete.